this is a poem i wrote back in highschool, ive grown alot since then but it still has meaning to me, and my panthers should understand this....
12:24
Composed by Quinntashia Roy
As, I look at the time
I ain’t trying to rhyme
Take a second to reflect on those we lost at Columbine
Such a tragedy it was
Those kids were just like us
HELL, it could have been us
Then the outbreak of sorrow, pain, anger and misery
Sudden awareness
How the hell could we be so damn careless?
Screams of justice and remembrance saying NEVER AGAIN
Could one of us commit such a sin
As time passed so many nights we go to sleep
With things left undone and pushed to the next day
Come- on! Haven’t we learned tomorrows not promised today?
Then there’s 9/11 well that’s that, there’s nothing left to say
We are the youth of the nation
Everything’s great Cuz the adults think they understand what’s written in the sand
Then on April 16th, 2007 Virginia Tech made Columbine look like a spec
Yea, so much for never again, huh, but this one was worse in the end
33 students never go home again
Never again to say a thing
Nor to enjoy another spring
We’re all the same
The pain we go through
The sorrow we feel
What makes us different are
The decisions we make
So they group us together
Because we wear black we’re dangerous
And you try saving me from myself
Cuz my life to you means everything
But in my past are things you still hold against me
No you cannot save me
But it’s not the time to breakdown
But to face yourself and let go
Cuz time moves on
12/5/08
11/14/08
Saint Sinner

Born innocent, this is how it all starts,
There is no good or evil, no right or wrong
There is one thing, something pure
With the best of intentions
Goodness at heart
Following all the rules
Turning the other cheek
Ever forgiving
Willing to bent over backwards
Give the shirt off my back
Putting others before me
Ever trusting the church
I was a saint
As time passes, this changes
Until a moment like now, when I wonder how I got here
How I got to this place,
I am darkness
I am pain
I am suffering
I am cold hearted
I am cruel
I am judgment
I am in my own personal hell
The descending darkness on my soul eats away at me
I’m falling faster and the further down I go, the more darkness will show
The goodness that was once there begins to go
As time moves on the colder I grow
Emotion begins not to show
And blood begins no to flow
Like ice in my veins its freezes
The cold radiates fro me like chilling breezes
This however affects more than just me
It affects all those who need me
See you all now will be shit out of luck
Because I’m getting to the point where I just dot give a fuck
I don’t fear the burden that I bear
But more so the fact that I lack the strength to care
And now I take my seat on the throne of ice
For the spite and vengeance in my burns with a fire
And I dance with the devil tonight
Because now knows my new found burning desire
I am now a sinner
I was once a saint
But I am now a sinner
I have become this through the darkness of life
But through all of this how could it be
That still there is some form of light
And on the darkest of days it still shines bright
Within me still lies
The eternal fight
Between darkness and light
Every church I pass
Every saintful sight
Every act of kindness
My Lord, My Salvation, My Symbol, My Cross
Not a second skips
Nor minute passes
Or hours has gone
Not a day goes by
Nor weeks be done
Or months move on
Without a cross around my neck
It is my show of respect
And it forever I must protect
I must have been pure enough to wear for all of these years
Every minute that I fought through those tears
Every single fear
He held me
Showed me the way
Goodness guided me
This world is a curel place
Perhaps I’m on of the few strong who is strong enough to deal with it.
The devil knows my desire
He wants me to reap from the fruits of his labor
But he is not my savior
I cannot dine with the devil, only dance with him
I will not willingly give up my soul
As dark as it may be its mine
Its gods gift to me an worth fighting for
I will dance with the devil
Because I am darkness
And it will never go
But I will dine in the light
Because I am cross
And it always shows
I am the keeper of the gate
I am its guardian
I am an archangel
I am a fallen
I am a Saint Sinner
There is no good or evil, no right or wrong
There is one thing, something pure
With the best of intentions
Goodness at heart
Following all the rules
Turning the other cheek
Ever forgiving
Willing to bent over backwards
Give the shirt off my back
Putting others before me
Ever trusting the church
I was a saint
As time passes, this changes
Until a moment like now, when I wonder how I got here
How I got to this place,
I am darkness
I am pain
I am suffering
I am cold hearted
I am cruel
I am judgment
I am in my own personal hell
The descending darkness on my soul eats away at me
I’m falling faster and the further down I go, the more darkness will show
The goodness that was once there begins to go
As time moves on the colder I grow
Emotion begins not to show
And blood begins no to flow
Like ice in my veins its freezes
The cold radiates fro me like chilling breezes
This however affects more than just me
It affects all those who need me
See you all now will be shit out of luck
Because I’m getting to the point where I just dot give a fuck
I don’t fear the burden that I bear
But more so the fact that I lack the strength to care
And now I take my seat on the throne of ice
For the spite and vengeance in my burns with a fire
And I dance with the devil tonight
Because now knows my new found burning desire
I am now a sinner
I was once a saint
But I am now a sinner
I have become this through the darkness of life
But through all of this how could it be
That still there is some form of light
And on the darkest of days it still shines bright
Within me still lies
The eternal fight
Between darkness and light
Every church I pass
Every saintful sight
Every act of kindness
My Lord, My Salvation, My Symbol, My Cross
Not a second skips
Nor minute passes
Or hours has gone
Not a day goes by
Nor weeks be done
Or months move on
Without a cross around my neck
It is my show of respect
And it forever I must protect
I must have been pure enough to wear for all of these years
Every minute that I fought through those tears
Every single fear
He held me
Showed me the way
Goodness guided me
This world is a curel place
Perhaps I’m on of the few strong who is strong enough to deal with it.
The devil knows my desire
He wants me to reap from the fruits of his labor
But he is not my savior
I cannot dine with the devil, only dance with him
I will not willingly give up my soul
As dark as it may be its mine
Its gods gift to me an worth fighting for
I will dance with the devil
Because I am darkness
And it will never go
But I will dine in the light
Because I am cross
And it always shows
I am the keeper of the gate
I am its guardian
I am an archangel
I am a fallen
I am a Saint Sinner
11/6/08
WHO AM I? …. I AM A CHAMPION!!!
Who am I!?
I will conquer what has never been conquered. Defeat will not be in my creed. I will believe where all those before me have doubted. I will always endeavor to uphold the prestige, honor and respect of my team. I have trained my mind and now my body will follow!
WHO AM I? …. I AM A CHAMPION!!!
I will acknowledge the fact that I am an elite warrior who arrives at the cutting edge of battle by any means at my disposal. I accept the fact that my team expects me to move further, faster and fight harder than our opponents. Never shall I fail my comrades. I will always keep myself mentally alert, physically strong and morally straight and I will shoulder more than my share of the task whatever it may be. One hundred percent and more
WHO AM I? …. I AM A CHAMPION!!!
Gallantly will I show the world that I am a specially selected and well trained warrior. My heart and my soul will be the fuel to carry my body when my limbs are to weary. I will never falter, I will never lose focus as long as there is hope in my mind and my heart still beats. I will never give in to the evil that is weakness and I will fight that evil with my dying breath.
WHO AM I? …. I AM A CHAMPION!!!
Energetically will I meet my enemies, no one will challenge me, none will stop me from my goal. I shall defeat them on the field of battle for I am better trained and will fight with all my might. Surrender is not a Champion’s word. I will never leave a fallen comrade to fall at the hands of my enemy and under no circumstances will I ever surrender.
WHO AM I? …. I AM A CHAMPION!!!
Readily will I display the discipline and strength required to fight on to my objective and I will complete my mission. I will rise when I fallen. I will rip the heart from my enemy and leave it beating on the ground. My enemy need not fear me but he will respect me and if he does not. I will make him respect me with all that I have to give.
WHO AM I? …. I AM A CHAMPION!!!
History will remember my name and he will not have to be kind. For I will have denied his criticisms and put in my own praise, No one will define me, no one will tell me what I can achieve, none will say I have not given all I have to give and none will take my glory.
WHO AM I? …. I AM A CHAMPION!!!
By The Green Panthers International
I will conquer what has never been conquered. Defeat will not be in my creed. I will believe where all those before me have doubted. I will always endeavor to uphold the prestige, honor and respect of my team. I have trained my mind and now my body will follow!
WHO AM I? …. I AM A CHAMPION!!!
I will acknowledge the fact that I am an elite warrior who arrives at the cutting edge of battle by any means at my disposal. I accept the fact that my team expects me to move further, faster and fight harder than our opponents. Never shall I fail my comrades. I will always keep myself mentally alert, physically strong and morally straight and I will shoulder more than my share of the task whatever it may be. One hundred percent and more
WHO AM I? …. I AM A CHAMPION!!!
Gallantly will I show the world that I am a specially selected and well trained warrior. My heart and my soul will be the fuel to carry my body when my limbs are to weary. I will never falter, I will never lose focus as long as there is hope in my mind and my heart still beats. I will never give in to the evil that is weakness and I will fight that evil with my dying breath.
WHO AM I? …. I AM A CHAMPION!!!
Energetically will I meet my enemies, no one will challenge me, none will stop me from my goal. I shall defeat them on the field of battle for I am better trained and will fight with all my might. Surrender is not a Champion’s word. I will never leave a fallen comrade to fall at the hands of my enemy and under no circumstances will I ever surrender.
WHO AM I? …. I AM A CHAMPION!!!
Readily will I display the discipline and strength required to fight on to my objective and I will complete my mission. I will rise when I fallen. I will rip the heart from my enemy and leave it beating on the ground. My enemy need not fear me but he will respect me and if he does not. I will make him respect me with all that I have to give.
WHO AM I? …. I AM A CHAMPION!!!
History will remember my name and he will not have to be kind. For I will have denied his criticisms and put in my own praise, No one will define me, no one will tell me what I can achieve, none will say I have not given all I have to give and none will take my glory.
WHO AM I? …. I AM A CHAMPION!!!
By The Green Panthers International
Don't Question Me
I am a Sovereign Woman, creating new paths for young ladies everywhere.
I am a Survivor of many evils upon this earth.
Self-destruction not for me,
Abomination don’t even try,
Hatred can’t even come close.
I am a Maturing Woman, over coming life’s curve balls without a niche.
I a Strong Woman, Divine in my own right.
My enemies can’t hold me down nor can they break me.
For I am a Soldier, holding my head up.
Doing this job better than the men.
I am a women, who brings sexy back,
For I have high hopes and many aspirations.
I am a Dentist,
An English professor,
A Lawyer,
A Police officer,
A Singer,
A Mother, A Writer,
A Daughter,
I am a Sister,
I am Delta Pi Sigma,
I am God's gift to this World.
When you cry, my shoulder is there,
When you talk, my ears will listen
When you hurt I will comfort your pain,
My heart is here to cure the sadness in you.
For like a Panther in the wilderness I will guide you
Like a Dove in the sky I will protect you,
For the Elite Sisterhood is No Game,
We have no Chains,
We hold you down for we are woman of pride.
When you see us in the clubs, you know what it is
When you see us on the block, don’t hate we just doing our thing.
I am a Sophisticated Woman, who brings her A game.
I am ever evolving into a tale of many dreams.
I am a fairy godmother, who can tell you about the ghetto chronicles of this here world.
I am a woman, who isn’t afraid to take a risk,
I challenge myself to levels beyond this earth.
I am a woman, rocking my Greek letters proudly.
I am a woman channeling Goddesses of the past.
I am a Shape shifter that strolls the jungle by night
And turns into a beautiful white dove by day.
Guarding my sisters,
Guiding my future,
I am Goddess of vivacious Poetry, who escapes the claws of this world
I am Goddess of Wisdom, who can penetrate the rock of every man’s soul
I am Goddess of Truth, an enchantress beyond these walls
I am Goddess of Good Cheer, a spirit too perpetual to form a line
I am Delta Pi Sigma
With courage to fly to better and bigger reveries in this life.
I am woman enough to fly with the doves.
I have faith enough to believe, I can touch the skies,
I have dreams beyond a thousand miles,
I am class,
I am completion,
I am past,
I am future,
I am a Delta Pi Sigma Woman,
I am The Elite Sisterhood.
By Empress Athena
I am a Survivor of many evils upon this earth.
Self-destruction not for me,
Abomination don’t even try,
Hatred can’t even come close.
I am a Maturing Woman, over coming life’s curve balls without a niche.
I a Strong Woman, Divine in my own right.
My enemies can’t hold me down nor can they break me.
For I am a Soldier, holding my head up.
Doing this job better than the men.
I am a women, who brings sexy back,
For I have high hopes and many aspirations.
I am a Dentist,
An English professor,
A Lawyer,
A Police officer,
A Singer,
A Mother, A Writer,
A Daughter,
I am a Sister,
I am Delta Pi Sigma,
I am God's gift to this World.
When you cry, my shoulder is there,
When you talk, my ears will listen
When you hurt I will comfort your pain,
My heart is here to cure the sadness in you.
For like a Panther in the wilderness I will guide you
Like a Dove in the sky I will protect you,
For the Elite Sisterhood is No Game,
We have no Chains,
We hold you down for we are woman of pride.
When you see us in the clubs, you know what it is
When you see us on the block, don’t hate we just doing our thing.
I am a Sophisticated Woman, who brings her A game.
I am ever evolving into a tale of many dreams.
I am a fairy godmother, who can tell you about the ghetto chronicles of this here world.
I am a woman, who isn’t afraid to take a risk,
I challenge myself to levels beyond this earth.
I am a woman, rocking my Greek letters proudly.
I am a woman channeling Goddesses of the past.
I am a Shape shifter that strolls the jungle by night
And turns into a beautiful white dove by day.
Guarding my sisters,
Guiding my future,
I am Goddess of vivacious Poetry, who escapes the claws of this world
I am Goddess of Wisdom, who can penetrate the rock of every man’s soul
I am Goddess of Truth, an enchantress beyond these walls
I am Goddess of Good Cheer, a spirit too perpetual to form a line
I am Delta Pi Sigma
With courage to fly to better and bigger reveries in this life.
I am woman enough to fly with the doves.
I have faith enough to believe, I can touch the skies,
I have dreams beyond a thousand miles,
I am class,
I am completion,
I am past,
I am future,
I am a Delta Pi Sigma Woman,
I am The Elite Sisterhood.
By Empress Athena
She Is...
SHE speaks her mind, SHE is always on time...
SHE dresses so sharp...SHE turn heads when SHE walk...
SHE's beautiful, Intelligent, humble & caring....
SHE has passion in her eyes, desire to strive, carefree to care, and never have her nose up in the air...
who is this beautiful, amazing woman?
MY SISTER-the widow of a gentleman...the daughter of a lady...the Elite Dove...my justice...my oath of truth...
By Big Brother Stone Cold
SHE dresses so sharp...SHE turn heads when SHE walk...
SHE's beautiful, Intelligent, humble & caring....
SHE has passion in her eyes, desire to strive, carefree to care, and never have her nose up in the air...
who is this beautiful, amazing woman?
MY SISTER-the widow of a gentleman...the daughter of a lady...the Elite Dove...my justice...my oath of truth...
By Big Brother Stone Cold
Guardian
I am a sister for a reason, I might be new to this but all of you better believe I am and always will be true to this .Delta Pi Sigma for life, we must not forget the values which make us Elite, I AM MY SISTERS KEEPER 24/7. We all must life as we climb and leave no sister or brother behind. You are all my family. To all sisters and brothers alike if you need me call me and ill see what I can do to help you. That it what family is for.
I have many restless nights
As I struggle though these plights
On the daily grind as I battle through these fight
And I blush
What a rush
I reminisce
Cold crush
Next door ear to the wind
This is where I begin
The journey of a panther that is driven
I am HypnotiQ and I am Delta Pi Sigma’s Guardian.
I have many restless nights
As I struggle though these plights
On the daily grind as I battle through these fight
And I blush
What a rush
I reminisce
Cold crush
Next door ear to the wind
This is where I begin
The journey of a panther that is driven
I am HypnotiQ and I am Delta Pi Sigma’s Guardian.
9/19/08
We Made It Pi remix
"We Made It"
(Pi remix)
Together we made it
We made it even though we had our backs
Up against the wall
See a sister survived the worst
But my life is glorious (uh!)
But I know that we leaped every hurdle
And we so victorious (uh!)
Take a look we are symbols of greatness
Now call a sister Hypnotic (yeah)
As force securin' the win, causeWe believe Trinitorious (yeah)
You know that we been 'bout our letters
Even though we rockin em' now (yes)
Together we made it (you see we did it sisters)
We made it even though we had our backs
Up against the wall (come on)
Forever we waited (ah hah)
And they told us we were never gonna
Get it But we took it on the line
(To the island)
on the line
(To the campus)
on the line
(In the station, to this bangin' instrumental)
on the line
(Rise with me)
on the line
(Come and get it)
on the line
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yo
When it all got started we were steadily
Just getting rejected
And it seemed like nothin' we could do
would ever get us respected
At best we were stressed at the worst
They probably said we're pathetic
Had all the pieces to that puzzle
Just the way to connect it
we was fighting through every fact
Tightening up every line
Never restin' the question if IWas out of my mind
It finally came time to do it and let it die
So we put the chips on the table and
Told them to let it ride, sing it (yeah)
Together we made it (you see we did it sisters)
We made it even though we had our backs
Up against the wall (come on)
Forever we waited (ah hah)
And they told us we were never gonna
Get it But we took it on the line(To the island)
on the line
(To the campus)
on the line
(In the station, to this bangin' instrumental)
on the line
(Rise with me)
on the line
(Come and get it)
on the line
Together we made it (you see we did it sisters)
We made it even though we had our backs
Up against the wall (come on)
Forever we waited (ah hah)
And they told us we were never gonna
Get it But we took it on the line
(To the island)
on the line
(To the campus)
on the line
(In the station, to this bangin' instrumental)
on the line
(Rise with me)
on the line
(Come and get it)
on the line
Poem of Pi=3.14
The mystery of 3.14 is definitive of me just like the mystery of me is divinity you will see.
The surface which shows an unknown straight forward purpose, however is you reverse this 314 to 413 it is clear to see the one less than four is three
Pi is never ending in its ascending to greatness just like my sisters an me, not to say my will to succeed is never bending but it will never be descending
When you look at me just like pi there is more than meets the eye, it is not from my roots that I derive but it is my driving pride installed in me to be all that I can be the mysterious me which is fill with divinity. The mrystery of pi's never ending stride is answered in me as well as the mystery of what keeps me going continuously...it is the will to succeed
The surface which shows an unknown straight forward purpose, however is you reverse this 314 to 413 it is clear to see the one less than four is three
Pi is never ending in its ascending to greatness just like my sisters an me, not to say my will to succeed is never bending but it will never be descending
When you look at me just like pi there is more than meets the eye, it is not from my roots that I derive but it is my driving pride installed in me to be all that I can be the mysterious me which is fill with divinity. The mrystery of pi's never ending stride is answered in me as well as the mystery of what keeps me going continuously...it is the will to succeed
Voices
everyone has there dark days when they just hate the world, an this some expresses mine, besides its better to write and release
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I hear voices in my head
they council me
they understand
they tell me things that I will do
they show me things ill do to you
they talk to me, they talk to me
you got your rules and your religion
all designed to keep you safe
but when rules start getting broken
you start questioning your faith
I have a voice that is my savior
hates to love and loves to hate
I have the voice that has the knowledge
and the power to rule your fate I
hear voices crying
I see heroes dying
I taste the blood that’s drying
I feel the tension rising
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I hear voices in my head
they council me
they understand
they tell me things that I will do
they show me things ill do to you
they talk to me, they talk to me
you got your rules and your religion
all designed to keep you safe
but when rules start getting broken
you start questioning your faith
I have a voice that is my savior
hates to love and loves to hate
I have the voice that has the knowledge
and the power to rule your fate I
hear voices crying
I see heroes dying
I taste the blood that’s drying
I feel the tension rising
Our Deepest Fear
this is not something that i wrote an im not claiming that, i am posting this because it is something that i think all women should know, especially us Pi Women and Psi Men
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn't serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn't serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others
poem
Poetry in motion flows like wind over the ocean
When I'm poisend its my potion
How gratifying it is to have that notion
Poetry is grace
Feelings are centered in its base
Its understanding is something that we chase
When mastered it exceeds time an space
Poetry is demention
In time it continues its accention
We have no choice but to continue retention
Poetry is motion I
t is the flow of the ocean
It is grace in any space
It is demention in its accention
When I'm poisend its my potion
How gratifying it is to have that notion
Poetry is grace
Feelings are centered in its base
Its understanding is something that we chase
When mastered it exceeds time an space
Poetry is demention
In time it continues its accention
We have no choice but to continue retention
Poetry is motion I
t is the flow of the ocean
It is grace in any space
It is demention in its accention
Hate No More
Hate No More
Its an emotion
Its love
Its pain
Its suffering
It is the essences of all things negative
An most of all its power
It is hate The words
"I hate" will never be said from again in a serious fashion. I will no longer give to her or anyone else for that matter power over me.
I am who I am because of this. This is what makes me. Its what drives me. I will never be like her nor shall I ever respect her.
She disgusts me
I can't stand her
She will always what she is
There is nothing that can be done to change her an I swear now that I will never try again.
So now I disgust her.
I will always.
There are no more good times.
Only fake laughter to try an peacefully pass the time that must be spent around her.
I am disgusts by her
She is dead to me now
Its an emotion
Its love
Its pain
Its suffering
It is the essences of all things negative
An most of all its power
It is hate The words
"I hate" will never be said from again in a serious fashion. I will no longer give to her or anyone else for that matter power over me.
I am who I am because of this. This is what makes me. Its what drives me. I will never be like her nor shall I ever respect her.
She disgusts me
I can't stand her
She will always what she is
There is nothing that can be done to change her an I swear now that I will never try again.
So now I disgust her.
I will always.
There are no more good times.
Only fake laughter to try an peacefully pass the time that must be spent around her.
I am disgusts by her
She is dead to me now
I Hate Her
I HATE HER
I hate her more than one can imagine
My hate for her is so strong it burns with a passion
I am kind, I am gentle, I am giving an I am caring
So you ask what is so daring to invoke the hate that I am bearing?
In my life my mother is my source
She gave birth to me an let me run my course
She groomed me to be wise an strong I
ndependence an respect are one of the many thing she was to teach me among standing tall.
She is strong and she is the one who said "give what you intend to get an never let one of your regrets be due to a lack of respect"
My mother so beautiful so kind so tolerant
She installed in me that same tolerance
She showed me that forgiveness is a part of life
My grandmother so evil, mean, an unrelenting
She does what she wants when she wants an how she wants
Shoot first a ask questions later is her mato
Her kindness, calmness, old timing wisdom are all a part of her false bravado
As a child me tears came from my fears which would manifest in nightmares
Every night never a peaceful one
As weeks passed the same fearful cycle had begun
Counseling was the apparent solution
The goal was to find out what was wrong with me but this yielded no conclusion
One day they just stopped an slowly the thoughts of them I forgot
One night however years later they returned
These haunting images they burn in my soul
But why? I know now why, my grandmother is wear the answer resides
She caused my pain, my suffering, my hurt, my fears
He intentional berating, disrespect an same old cocky threats were the source of my tears
My mother told me to forgive her
My mother told me to love her
My mother told me to except her
My mother stood up for her
An what did she do?
She disrespected my mother
She berated her
She embarrassed my mother
Hell she acted like she hated her
My mother was the only thing keeping me connected my grandmother......
My grandmother brought my mother to tears because she berated her, after all the times my mother stood up for her an tried to stop me from saying it to her
But the truth is something that I will one day soon say to her
After all these years I will say to my grandmother how I truly feel
Because the truth is .....
I hate her
I hate her more than one can imagine
My hate for her is so strong it burns with a passion
I am kind, I am gentle, I am giving an I am caring
So you ask what is so daring to invoke the hate that I am bearing?
In my life my mother is my source
She gave birth to me an let me run my course
She groomed me to be wise an strong I
ndependence an respect are one of the many thing she was to teach me among standing tall.
She is strong and she is the one who said "give what you intend to get an never let one of your regrets be due to a lack of respect"
My mother so beautiful so kind so tolerant
She installed in me that same tolerance
She showed me that forgiveness is a part of life
My grandmother so evil, mean, an unrelenting
She does what she wants when she wants an how she wants
Shoot first a ask questions later is her mato
Her kindness, calmness, old timing wisdom are all a part of her false bravado
As a child me tears came from my fears which would manifest in nightmares
Every night never a peaceful one
As weeks passed the same fearful cycle had begun
Counseling was the apparent solution
The goal was to find out what was wrong with me but this yielded no conclusion
One day they just stopped an slowly the thoughts of them I forgot
One night however years later they returned
These haunting images they burn in my soul
But why? I know now why, my grandmother is wear the answer resides
She caused my pain, my suffering, my hurt, my fears
He intentional berating, disrespect an same old cocky threats were the source of my tears
My mother told me to forgive her
My mother told me to love her
My mother told me to except her
My mother stood up for her
An what did she do?
She disrespected my mother
She berated her
She embarrassed my mother
Hell she acted like she hated her
My mother was the only thing keeping me connected my grandmother......
My grandmother brought my mother to tears because she berated her, after all the times my mother stood up for her an tried to stop me from saying it to her
But the truth is something that I will one day soon say to her
After all these years I will say to my grandmother how I truly feel
Because the truth is .....
I hate her
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